2024 12 27

2024 12 27

Idubbbz always played an edgy cunt for views. There were bits of the slapstick or absurdity that made me giggle, but a lot of it was a miss for me.
A while ago, Idubbbz posted an image and a little caption on his twitter. It's him holding up a little rainbow pin and the text "Today I learned what a Sapphic is"

His regular fans instantly hurl slurs, 'WOKE' and all that other shit. Instantly turn a romantic attraction in "degenerate scum" and whatever else. He released a video I still sometimes think a little about. In it he recalls a convention where a trans person came up to him and said something along the lines of "I know you hate transgender people, but can we get a picture?'

He acts like this is some strange revelation to him. Like he's been completely blind to himself and his fanbase for the past almost 15 years and how his most known bit is 2 slurs taped together. He feels insulted that after everything he puts on camera and writing, that people think he's not chill. He says he was just being an edgy teenager or whatever, but he was like 26.

Now that he's no longer lolcowing other people and meekly said "maybe yelling slurs is not always nice?" his boys turned against him. Most other people who weren't a fan aren't suddenly in with him after his little video either.

I don't know if we've done the "The LGBTQIA+ community has forgiven: Ian" but ehhh, I might not wave a banner for you. I can acknowledge his personal growth while finding large aspects of him horrendous. His dumbshit fans regurgitating his edgy, racist, homophobic and all the rest of his bits while he goes "I have no responsibility for my audience, they are separate people and whatever they do while inspired by me has nothing to do with me and I am not liable for any of it."

And unrelated; this



I'm gonna fucking pour fryer oil and ice cubes down my throat

2024 12 24

I killed it a while ago and that went unnoticed. But! I'm rebuilding the parts I liked on Neocities!

I've been thinking of working Solar Cyber Punk into Virtually Isolated. I've been building more separate sites lately to give more focus to my hobbies. I made DeadWeb and that honestly could carry my webcomic section better then the main site.

I dunno, watch this go live in a few days when I've written and copy pasted more old stuff!

2024 12 21

The nearby square put up a tall xmas tree! Tis' the season to have astigmatism.

2024 12 18

Did one of you really make a throw-away just to be horny at me?
I'll be thinking back to this one every time I get sugar daddy scams thrown at me.
Oh, I bet I would be Tumblr User 57587654765765, I bet I would be.

2024 12 17

Bought a cheap guitar at goodwill, just gotta replace the strings and clean it up a little and we're good to go!
I played a little electric guitar ages ago, but switched to bass. I think it would be fun to just have this one around!

2024 12 15

Took a stupid walk for my stupid mental health on the sunday morning. Found some of my stickers still around the place!

Some of them read "Girl kisser" and people leave those alone, but these ones? I often find them scratched off with keys or pocket knifes. Can't stop me though. I can order sticker rolls and markers until I'm dead.

They're really gonna hate it once I buy the colored markers I've been eyeing for a while, they're gonna drown in every little pride flag under the sun.



I've also been playing Atlyss a bit and a bunch of the last few weeks! Fun game!

The only thing that irks me is that there are servers with people playing the fat-ass shortstack furry game but going "oh no, I'm not some fucking degen, I'm NorMaL!"

Babygurl, stop it. Devils Sacrament and all that, community whatnot.

2024 12 14

I've seen people say "if u needed the extension to see that i feel sorry for u, live ur own life" but like, that's disingenuous and you know it. No one needed Shinigami Eyes to see if 'God Emperor MAGA Hitlerus Trump' on twitter making posts like 'kill all tr00ns lol' with pictures of soyjaks committing suicide alongside them was a cunt, you could just see that. Don't be daft now.

I really didn't need shiggy eyes to understand that the dude telling to me to kill myself because I'll never be a real woman was a idiot and pretending people really needed the red mark or they would NEVER know is just even more idiotic.

2024 12 13

2024 12 10

My little phone case is falling apart so I'm keeping it in 1 piece with stickers. There's Slaanesh, Khorne, Nurgle and Croissant.

2024 12 09

There was plenty of weird and just kinda horrible shit they started saying towards the end, like emotions only being able to be channeled through girls and weakness whatever, whatever. But I was able to stomach it for the sake of wanting to see the story with these characters I had grown to love.

And then they did whatever the fuck that was.

2024 12 08

2024 12 07

We played Armored Core 6 a whole bunch when it came out and I had a mech with the trans flag theme. We would cheer on transbot with a little group. Little headers and other things here and there, my oldschool runescape girlie wears the trans pride sweater.

While playing some pokemon online card game i tried to scan some codes off card packs and it flipped on my webcam instantly and frames my face with my trans flag behind me. The majority of my characters in anything have been female for the past decade. When he asks me what to get me for my birthday or christmas I tell him to buy me estrogen.

We laughed, I told him he should have DM'ed me egg pictures and all-caps me with "THIS U?!"
He laughingly said he should start a conversation with "Do you have something to tell me me? Hmmm? HMMMMM?"

2024 12 01

It was vaguely weird because 1 friend couldn't make it, so they shot some calls and replaced him with some one I have a poor history with. A person who outed me as "gay-something" ages ago in front of strangers and chastised me relentlessly. Someone who would put Moonman songs in our D&D dropbox with titles like "kill all the gays and the faggots".

Before that mate shows up;

I hand him some of the "be gay, do crimes" stickers with the trans-flag background and colour copies of all the zines I made over the last few months. He gets to the Virtually-Isolated one that starts with "Hoi, I'm Tina, just a queer rat girl" and "I have always been normal about Pokemon" that talks about how PKMN Blue forces you as a boy, but Crystal gave you an option to play as a girl and how that left a lingering feeling in me.

I always knew he was gonna be chill, he often vents a little how on his reddit stuff, people are super transphobic and he fights them tooth and nail everytime. He's been fighting this fight for a long time and He's as cis and straight as they come. I knew already that he's one of the most supportive and best people in my life. He's one of the first people I told I was pan and he understood what that meant and was always accommodating about all the silly estrogen and boy kissing jokes I have.

I show him a quick swipe of my gallery on my phone. I tell him, in the first decades of my life I never really took selfies and you either catch me on pictures with my stoic dead face, or pulling something silly when I'm aware of the camera. He understands instantly when he sees like 2k selfies taken within the same year. He understands that I never cared much for who I was before and that I've only started to like myself after I tried a new name and swapping some fashion around when I tell him. That I don't have to work a fake smile for pictures when I'm free to express myself.

He puts it all in his pocket and I put my phone back. The 3rd mate is back at the table and we carry on like I didn't just expose a part of my soul to someone.

It's not perfect, but when is it ever? I told him, I never ment to hide this thing I've been doing for over a year now, but I always knew in my heart of hearts that he was gonna be chill about it. I just didn't want to burden him with awkward knowledge about me.

Later he sends me a whatsapp



You could never understand the carnal lust I feel for this man

2024 11 29

2024 11 28

It was a little gay at work a while ago.

I was looking for LGBTQI talk groups and such nearby. There used to be one every sunday in the little community centre almost right next to my parents place, but for what many will find relatable reasons, I couldn't go there.

But it's gone now and like 99% of all the queer spaces offered and advertised are just for lesbians and gay men. Unless I wanna travel to different provinces for a 1 hour hang-out right after work.

I know I got ya'll, but sometimes it's still very lonesome, ya know?

2024 11 26

But he forgot and I feel stood up with my nice shave, accessories and secrets ;_;

2024 11 24

2024 10 14

the font refuses to change though

2024 11 11

I'm not really an artist, more like a shitty writer and "meh" designer. I don't really have a gallery to offer, no hoards of fanfiction or little novels. Tabletop games don't seem to be a big thing on Neocities and at most I've found a few sites that keep Adventure Journals. When you get to Webcomics, most sites under that tag ARE webcomics, not half-archives like I have.

Although, I suppose I'm "competing" with sites that have been around since like 2016 that were/are cornerstones of the whole of Neocities.
While it's not about the numbers going up for me, I would like to know or see what my reach is.

I'd like to see if people are inspired by some of my tabletop tips and have them show pawns or battlemats. People hitting me up about the webcomic list and going "Yoo, I remember that". Some one who sees my little zines and makes their own.

I suppose I should work on the interactivity on the site, but last time I threw a chatbox up some cunt told me to off myself, so yea.

2024 11 09

Birthday girl having her little birthday drinks as soon as midnight hit.

2024 11 07

I bought these cute little gothy sleeves the other day. I need treats every so often to keep me sane.

2024 11 06

The pink has faded, but this one survived last winter, let's see if it makes this one!

2024 11 05

I've been slapping a bunch of these random stickers around the neighborhood. I also made a bunch that read "DIY HRT" and just "TRANS RIGHTS".

2024 10 31

I'm the only one who laughed and thought it was fun. Co-workers were just like "what a fucking idiot"

2024 10 30

Stuck one on my phonecase.

2024 10 30

More stickers!

There was a pen with a tumblr logo on it at my parents house.

2024 10 27

Bought a small stack of sticker paper and I'm just messing around a little.

2024 10 26

"maybe killing the homeless is not a good idea?"

or "just try to be nice and don't tell people who are doing something harmless that you don't enjoy to kill themselves."

And I half zone out on these messages because I already learned these like 20 years ago and I don't need a refresher for something I already uphold. I have that sometimes. If you try to explain something I've had in my belief system for like 25 years and you talk to me like a child, I zone out. I'm not gonna stop ya because I know some peeps need to hear basic shit, but goddamn.

Which really puts me in such a weird spot when the neo-libertarian conservative next to me has his world view shattered about addicts not just being addicted for the sheer fun of it or something.

I just have difficulty trying to explain some of these basic human rights things to people of the same age group sometimes. Like, fuck, how did you not start thinking or learning this shit at least in your early 20's. What the fuck. How the fuck did you get through life up to this point while legit thinking you're the main character and we all de-spawn when you leave the room.

I used to try, but I got tired of the endless bad faith arguments, "lol u made a typo so I won" and the slurs. At this point, it really ain't my job to educate you unless you pay me. Just read some shit NOT made by people who do shout-outs to StormFront or by the name of DerUnteidigeKriegMan88 if you wanna learn.

But that means people would need to understand Google and it's fun way of leading you to garbage. It means they need to critically think for a moment when HitlerCunnyFan tell them ethnostates are okay.

Which for some, is asking way, WAY too much.

You might tell me "oh, you should hang with better people"
bae, I hang with like 4 generations of people due to the nature of my work. I spend 9 hours in the open air, directly interacting with random people and workers. Everyday I can end up working with whole new groups of like 20 people and then have a chance never see them again and meet 20 new ones tomorrow.

You talk a lot inbetween the boring bits, lots of people can't really stay composed in a way and start telling me why voting for the super-villain-trump-wannabe that's looking to deport him and his family just for his skin color was the best vote this middle-aged Egyptian man has every put in, according to himself.

I dunno, I just get frustrated about various connected thing sometimes. I get annoyed when people pretend our country is this super liberal paradise filled with shinning souls or some shit. It ain't and it never was. Conversion therapy is still 100% legal, still fucktons of extra stipulations for gay marriage, poor trans healthcare which is only going to get worse now that the people voted in the extreme right-wing party and half the people that are supposed to lead the country just parrot what the USA does, regardless of context of how different things are across the other side of the world.

Just a little background frustration that's always going on.

2024 10 25

Thinking about tossing all general tips and tools on the left, personal junk on the right. Zines, DnD journals and campaigns. I don't wanna give every tiny project a full page, but it feels so inconsistent if I don't.

2024 10 24



Webfishing

2024 10 23

Making sad zines about old tabletop group experiences.

check out this tiny part of my wall that has some of my favorite things on it

2024 10 17

I need a new job. Maybe a fun office one that doesnt keep me on my feet for 9 hours without sitting or breaks. One where I only have to start at 9 or something easy like that.

2024 10 15

I think some one tried to pull off the trans peace sign sticker, but some one else stuck it back quickly in a different spot?
For as many enemies as I might have because of these stickers, I think some one out there has my back.

2024 10 12

I almost always say to my self "I've never met an unfuckable fireman" afterwards because I am very normal about these things.

2024 10 11

2024 10 10

So, tons of people have forgotten that by buying twitter blue, your replies show up first on any tweet you comment on. The more that tweet is seen, replied to or interacted with, the more pocket money the poster gets. It's a popular thing for them to just search the keyword 'trans' and post the most heinous shit underneath it to get a rise out of people. Tragically, this works a lot. I see so many people fall for this bait and end up financing these dolts to keep doing it.

What most people did was just block all the blue-checkmarks who bought Twitter Blue. But then a lot of people got banned for blocking so many people. Make of that what you will.

Now, now you need to be extra weary. People are getting a few cents more and they WILL go out there and post the most horrendous shit about people just to get a response.

Also, yes, the platform is fucking trash with some of the people on it, but please don't fall for the idiots who paid for twitter and condemn all the great artists on it.
For some, Twitter is the best network and portfolio tool they have.
Where else are they gonna go? the other websites that barely get 5% of the traffic that twitter does? A personal website that most won't bother with and which will get even less views than a Pillowfort account? Fucking Reddit?

Just, just think for a brief moment when you see hostile tweets from morons who paid money to make money from your rage.

2024 10 7

Sometimes he looks at me sad through the window as I go to work.

I haven't actually been able to access this tab for a month or so now. I'm really starting to give up on Blusky.

2024 10 05

Shout out to the time I remade almost all of Final Fantasy 1 in Roll20 and also used animated gifs and music for the whole thing. It's all Mcloud's chiptuney stuff, but come one, hes got so many fun tunes!

Someday I'll play this with people, someday.

2024 09 25



Did I ever tell you how I got locked out of my old acc like 10 years ago that I only made to talk to a few FF14 peeps and follow random artists?

I lost my cool after getting more promoted tweets and ads then actually seeing the people I followed. Because you would also just get phone notifications about random tweet from people you didn't follow.

Sure, nowadays when I do scroll through just to see either jokes or art, I have like 57 addons running to delete half the site and make it useful. But man, default Twitter? I have no fucking clue how people stomach that shit.

I come from a time where there were no rules regarding internet ads. This mostly manifested into ads that would be made in flash to look cool (and would slow down your machine) and would have auto playing sound to grab your attention (Always 200% volume).

Some could also 'trap' your mouse in the little ad if it was made in flash, and have a few properties turned on. If you accidently moused over it would mean you'd be fucked. Any click sends you to the malware invested site that will run the type of script that koeienmoord would have and freeze your machine if you ALT+F4'ed. These later sites became illegal pretty fast and got killed, but they were around for way too long to begin with.

As soon as they started to do that, I was done. You fucked up forever to me now.
I keep my adblocks up to date, I run tons of scripts to kill ads and other junk, I close sites as soon as I spot ads. I report the ads and block all blazed posts that slip through on my half cracked mobile tumblr app. I run cracked apps for streaming and other video sites for as much as I can. I stopped actively watching TV like 20 years ago.

I just can't stomach commercials. I've just been programmed to instantly get a little angry and shut off whatever is showing them. Before I found a better cracked version of the Tumblr app, I would sometimes open it, see 1 ad after 2 posts and I would just close the app. Fuck that noise.

2024 09 27



I local goverment painted a pride flag at one of the large entries into downtown a bit ago, I biked by coworkers a bit ago when they were half way slapping it into the ground.

I like it, this stretch of road really needed a separate colour to stop tourists from walking over the little road into various traffic. It also instantly gets people so fucking mad at it. People have been drifting over it to either fuck it up or avoid it and fucking bike into the crowd on the sidepaths.

Seeing how LGBTQIA+ hate is rising in this country and some of the most seen coverage of it has a bunch a peeps saying some heinous shit. I'm sure they're gonna remove this because of bitchbaby cryouts after this little observation period.

Who wants to hold hands on a gay little path and then get run over by cyclists with me?

2024 09 25

Every once in a while I get like 500 visitors per day on the Virtually-Isolated site and I have to legit wonder where ya'll are coming from.
Lots of visits but never really any feedback.

I don't really advertise and I don't ask people to put up my button. It's why my following/follower ratio is like 40:1.

I mean, fuck yeah, sure. But I can't help wondering.

2024 09 24

The same guy who left the box comes running around the corner a few hours later. He is being chased by 3 people. He jumps over the hole in the sidewalk we're working on and he drops a knife from his pocket as he leaps.

I try to grab him as he sprints by me but he's got a greasy puffer jacket that I can't get a grip on. He sprints past us but the tallest of the people chasing him catch up. I was the only one from the like 6 workers there who saw the knife drop.

Turns out he just stole a shirt that was half a buck from the secondhand store. They mention people will sometimes try to swipe stuff and they don't tend to chase such cheap stuff, but he tried to throw hands in the store. I accidentally make everyone very uncomfortable by pointing out the knife. No one knew or saw it when it dropped from his pocket. They gave the knife to one of the secondhand store employees. I don't know why they did that.

bizarre shit sometimes.

2024 09 23

Found a creature today at a work site. Time to bathe this little thing.



Welcome back to the land of the living, your name is Lucky now. If I find your last owner you're gonna go home, but for now it's you and me Lucky.

2024 09 17

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2024 09 11

I played WH40k tabletop for a while with a crappy footslugging Chaos Marine Nurgle army, headed by Thypus with some termies, defiler and oblits in the back. Mini Chaos Daemon army of Blootletters. I had a 1k space marine army I painted in the Soul Drinkers style which I gave away later.

I used to hate going to the Games Workshop so much. I make clear that i play CSM and what I'm looking for. Sales guy would instantly try to push 2 Defilers in my hands just for the 2 extra legs to make a Brass Scorpion. Tells me to buy a 120 bucks Tau tank so I can slap it with a hammer, then buy a 30 bucks daemon prince to put on top of it. So it looks cool.

2024 09 7

I have these super cringey selfies in my drafts and whenever I see them I just go "rent lowering gunshots"



Speaking of trashy selfies, I did change up the pics on one of the secret pages a while ago. I still honestly don't know how many people found those parts of the site.

2024 08 31

Undefeated in this town.

2024 08 25

Ages ago I worked a little on a Pokemon Shrine for the website, but I turned it into a zine with a completetly different focus later on.

It's my Gen 1 and 2 team and trainers! I was a moody metalhead, of course I'm running Ghost/Dark/Psy where I can!

2024 08 25

For a moment I was like "oh, they put me in the trash folder" because the 2 words are synonymous to me.

yay

Transing the Internet Webring

2024 08 23

Did I ever introduce you to MY GIRLFRIEND?

2024 08 17

Ordered a simple eyeliner pencil. Got send a pencil.

2024 08 15

He was part of a fun group that would run tabletop games and do reviews for various mini's and similair books and stuff. Even when I was fading out of the physcal Warhammer hobby myself, they were nice to keep me up to date.

I kinda lost track after the purge and losing my first account. I sometimes would search him up again, but all points and leads just dry up at some point. I feel a bit too weird to contact old Allies Index members and be like
"Hi, I'm some random stranger who was mutuals with a friend of yours on a half-dead blogging site, how's Seb? Haven't heard or seen anything about my guy in almost a decade. We really werent the deepest of friends or anything but he was part of my eco system here back in the better days."

I hope Seb is doing fine.

2024 08 04

I went to Castlefest this year! Every 2 years or so I go to this large, 4 day Renaissance fair event. I'm always a bit hesitant to exist in the real world because I think people don't tend to be a fan of me.

I didn't really get to walk around by myself and really check out anything for myself on Friday. So on Saturday I untethered myself from the group for a bit. I still didn't really buy much. My wants were a little more fantasy than most had in stock or I had the feasible funds for. I want to make a sort of witch/warlock costume for next year maybe!

I enjoyed the shows, listening to people making fun jokes while waiting in line for delicious mead, rested in the secret garden, saw even more wonderful outfits, cosplays, costumes and met fantastic & the kindest people! I met a wonderful couple and we hung out for a while, we joked, we laughed and we showed eachother our best "straight & masked" impressions.

I got some looks, intense glare from one of the roaming performers, too. But seeing other people like me around, smiling and enjoying their day did me a lot of good. I needed that.

You finally get to see me without a phone mashed up against my face because of that, hurray!

I had black lipstick on me, but with how much you have to stay hydrated in the heat, I would have accidentally washed it off every 15 minutes. I was worried about bringing a lot of cosmetics to a hot, kinda dusty place.

Time to save up for next year!

2024 07 28

I guess I feel a little better.

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2024 07 21

Made a little zine for Solar Cyber Punk. It's a mini guide on getting cheap pots, soil, seeds and then planting potatoes, tomatoes, lettuce, mint and lavas.

Blue is the OG, black and white photocopies are the ones I'm gonna leave behind in the neighbourhood here and there.

2024 07 15

Messing around with little zines.

2024 07 07

Went to see a theater performance by a friend of mine! More info on the Best Buds page!

2024 07 05

2024 07 03

While my motherboard pretends to function, here, quick! A mockup of a vision I had for the LEGO JRPG page on Virtually Isolated!

The problem mainly is getting good, clean PNG's of the characters. I also don't have the majority of the toys anymore. The party had a boat that they turned into an airship later on! I had a bag of little monster creatures which I would use as enemies and I used to have the cool lego horse.

But! In the end, it's more about the fun story telling junk I did. I was like 8, I took names from all over the place! Mushra is just from Shinzo, Mikau is the Zora from Majora's Mask, Dyne is FF7, the 2 original planets are called Gaia and Terra, At the end Omega arrived and is then cast aside by an even greater being called Omecha which was a modified CIS droid with massive wings and a tail from the same parts.

It's not some literary genius I wanna bring to the world, I just like the idea of making a tribute to one of my favorite past times from my childhood. Playing JRPG's and making my own with my LEGO blorbo's

2024 07 02

Sticker I saw during work on a random streetpole. Cracked me up.

2024 06 26

Caught this mural on a walk through the city the other day.

2024 06 10

You will never guess what flag I bought for myself this month.

2024 06 2

It was fun! We took 0 pics and I just got home at like 3 AM

2024 05 29

2024 05 26

This is still the rough version of it, NPC's will have portraits, I'll fix the formatting on the text and work in a background. If I find a good enough background for each text box that works with the portrait, I can make the tables invisible.

2024 05 23

They scrape all the stickers off the random poles and lights from time to time, but I remain undeterred.

2024 05 18

I'm gonna port over a large part of Koro From Ivalice onto Virtually Isolated.

2024 05 14

Some one gave me this cute little unicorn today!

2024 05 10

Saw a gaggle crossing the road the other day!

2024 04 20

They keep taking them down, but I keep putting new ones in the local area. I may be a small, insecure voice, but I'm not shutting up now that I've started.

2024 04 14

I put a really personal page online. I half hid the update by deleting the preview and the page is in the "secret" section of the blinkies.

2024 04 06

I went along with some friends who are in a band to one of their gigs across the country. I helped pack the van, unpack, set up the stage a little and was greeted warmly by the locations crew. We got a good dinner and a fair share of free brews! The backstage which was upstairs was covered by tons of bands their little signatures and jokes!

While I was on my little trip, the lovely Melipatas also drew Retro Rat for me!



On the whole way back home I kept flipping over to the pic and looking at it, smiling like a goofball.
You can check out their wonderful Neocities site here and their Tumblr here!

2024 03 27

Saw this one still around today, neat!

2024 03 18

There were no losers in this stickerpack, I keep a bunch on me during work and stick them on random places. Streetlights and such

2024 03 14



While putting new topsoil in the yards, I woke up some S'pods by accident! Sorry Joey!

2024 03 05

I ordered some stickers and these are my 2 favorite ones in the whole pack.

2024 02 29

At work, some one fell of his bike with his kids. I ran over from my break to check it out. Only a few bumps and bruises but I did run over to a store nearby for some quick first aid supplies. I come running back with a med kit. Me and my coworker start fiddling with disinfectant and bandage as the dad tries to calm the 2 kids down. He comes back later and hands us flowers! I always try to help people whenever, but I've never had this moment where the person comes back with a gift.

2024 02 17

I need to get these 2 nerds a bigger box.

2024 02 02

Spotted on an underground garbage bin.

2024 02 02

During work I ran to a nearby cafe for a coffee, they had a framed picture of a local cat in their bathroom.

2024 1 17

I really liked it!
When the credits rolled, half the crowd audibly went "Did you get it?"

Shout out to my fav audience reviewer who went "It was just a bunch of a birds". before turning to their friends. In the blandest way possible, you ain't even wrong.