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! WARNING !

This is a fictional and highly edited story told in the form of yearly blog updates.
Names have been changed, locations are not mentioned and a lot of other things have been heavily omitted. Metaphors and analogies have been sanded down so roughly that the nuance is gone and they are just empty statements now, devoid of original context.

This small project features crude language, drugs mentions, sexual content mentions and suicide mentions.

If you struggle with these things please talk to someone you trust. I cannot give any promise that my version of things might help you deal with your own troubles in any way.
It is not designed to offer comfort.

 

 

I'm a fucking loser called Erika, Unemployed, college drop-out, failure of a daughter, unfuckable and have nothing to look forward to.

Here I journal my empty days and how I'm wasting my fucking life.

I have instruments I don't play, pencils & brushes I don't use, friends I'm scared of talking to and no one to hold.

I watch dumb fucking shows and videos. I've sold all my hobbies just to make rent. I barely brush my teeth once a month. I haven't been to a doctor in a decade.

I'm scared to go outside and all I do is smoke fucking dope to empty my dumb fucking skull.

I fucking hate myself and you should hate me, too.

RATGIRL FEMCEL NEET

A creative writing project that journals my worst years in a heavily edited form.