June 2026

I had been watching some of Majulaar's videos in the background. Mostly the Ultima series retrospective. I normally watch these as they come out, but I had 2 days off and I spend it reinstalling Morrowind, Tamriel Rebuild mods and staring at the rain outside. So I figured, why not!

I only played a little bit of various Ultima games. But I knew of the series and how it had influenced so many of the RPG's I played. I loved learning about how much Garriott wanted to present his world to the players. The trinkets and cloth maps in the game boxes is such a delightful thing. The maps and manual both being very effective guides for the game itself, with the marking on the maps detailing various secrets or at-first confusing travel systems and how the manuals often were a little spellbook in their own right.



Ages ago I had my own little universe and world, like a lot of people do and pretty much every creative has. Mine was heavily based on the games, books and shows I watched. I enjoyed fantasy RPG's but also hits of sci-fi and cyberpunk (Bless you Blade Runner for showing up on late night TV once in the 90's and changing my life.)
This was heavily reflected in how my world starts in classic "The bad guy and his monster army burned my village and now me and my friends are gonna kill that dude. Also this older guy who knows a lot and looks a bit like me is joining our quest, sometimes" and ultimately evolved into a small space system with planets, space faring and a metal god at the edge of the universe, ready to quiet down the stars because things were getting too bright and powerful.

It's fun to think back on it and then see the same vibe reflected in Ultima 1, a game I had never even played. Garriott also was just a humble RPG hero, bowing to a self-insert of himself before he becomes the avatar. I just think it's beautiful to see that young Garriott, before I was even born, was also just putting himself into fantasy hero situations like I did. Like we all do!



Did you know they also blasted him to space a bit ago? He really became a Space Ace after starting his career with a sword and shield. It's one thing to write your own fantastical story, but a whole other amazing thing to live the story beats yourself!

Sometimes I wish I would revisit that little OC universe. But it's so rife with stolen names, unoriginal concepts and by this point I've forgotten massive parts of it. A while ago I found a lot of the figures again in an old box but a lot of pieces were missing. I recreated them in slightly different outfits, trying to still match the original and now they sit on my little memorabilia shelf.

May 2026

I'm trying out some other OS's on the laptop and I'm having fun with Kubuntu right now! It was recommended by the delightful Nova The Proot!



The little animations on everything are already cute and I'm looking around for themes and all that. I feel I could turn this into a laptop you'd see on a nickelodeons show. Super bubbly and rounded design and all that.

I also got a laugh out of seeing My Little Pony on the VLC screenshot. I checked on Mint and it doesn't have that there.

I had been watching a whole bunch of Hannanie videos again. Hannanie was a Old School Runescape player who also made series with fun or silly premises. She's appeared on some of the larger events organized by the game and also did a lot of charity streams. She's also a Girl Like Me. I forget how many years ago I found her series about fighting the bosses in the game and sometimes teaming up with other people from the OSRS fan community in videos. She makes me laugh, but sometimes I also worry. There was a moment once where she didn't make videos or post anything for a while and when the video comes out it starts with her talking about how things ain 't great and then she talks about the mental health charities the donations go to. Then, later down line I find a members-only video she made where I guess she talks about what she's going through. Perhaps it's a little parasocial, but it's just such a sour feeling to hear that someone had a rough time afterwards. You want to be there in the moment to be supportive in which way you can, and when it's like reading an analytical piece years down the line or hunting for history or timeline, it's just such a shame.



She's doing well, these things come in waves, we all have that. She broke away from Old School Runescape a while ago. The vibe in that game was looking alright for a while, but bigoted types still prevail and with the removal of this years Pride Event, they feel emboldened. This also makes similar types flock to the game because their friends are "prepping the bar" by showing up early and doing these anti-pride protests and riots, if you know the saying. It was always a little rough when it comes to chat, double so when dealing with free players on the 1 social world in the whole game(301 put ya hands uuuuuupppp). But it certainly gotten worse.


RuneScape also has very interesting bots and people running around it. There was a group called Bible Chat. They would advertise with auto-typer accounts standing in populated places. It would range from "Jesus is the Light, join BibleChat!" "Together in Faith, BibleChat!" and "Homosexuality is a sin, BibleChat!"
The blow was a little cushioned by the fact I was running a little plugin that adds text-to-MiscrosoftSam-Speech and it came out goofy, but BibleChat was around for a long, long time. It didn't phase other people I guess. I joined it to have a look for a while. You would see these moments of humanity, someone with a drinking problem going through the rehab process and just needing people to talk to. Sure, I could never hate that. But this would be followed with immense transphobia and recital of psalms that refer to murdering sinners.



There have always been bots in the game, there was even the Steven Bot that you could command! But there are others. In populated places, it was not a rare sight to see people constantly rattle off inflammatory statements. Extreme right rhetoric to rile people up. But after a short while I started to see that they repeated a lot of phrases. When someone would tell them to shut up, they would use the same canned phrases and accusations. Aggressive chatbots whose sole purpose is to be inflammatory. Dev's and Mods have stated that a lot of these types are not native to the game. That the people who show up to anti-pride riots are just tourists. I always found a little hard to believe that it's worth it to make an account, get membership, do like 50 quests, travel to where ever to buy the white robes, get the cannon and raise Prayer to get Overhead Icons. All this to autotype for an afternoon. I can't imagine a scenario where this is worth it for actual people to do. Even if it's all botted and macro 'd, whose putting the money and time in this type of ... whatever this is. This protest, spreading of extreme right rhetoric, whatever.

And then the CEO fell to it. Of course, this launches a little counter protest that got no coverage and people didn't even know happened. The people who dress in white robes telling people there's no room for LGBTQIA+ people have won this battle. Glienor is theirs now I suppose. Powers greater then us as players have agreed with them.



I used to log on for at least the holiday seasons and shyly showed up at a few pride events. The only time when I didn't see blatant homo&transphobia was when a Mod himself did a player run parade and was able to mute players when they started yelling trash. But, the events get cancelled or the area the seasonal quests is in is overrun with 'protesters'. It's tricky to try and do this cute quests about a lad wanting to send flowers to his neighbor lad while 60 people in white robes are yelling "WE PAY, NO GAY" "RUNESCAPE IS NOT A PREDATOR PLAYGROUND" and shit like that in your ear.

I grew up with Runescape as my first MMORPG of that kind. I made little friends, learning about getting scammed, did Dragon Slayer and must have spend 100's of hours Fishing and reading Webcomics at the same time behind the family PC when I was 12. I played "Classic" before it was classic for a month or 2 before I was about to jump out. Then RuneScape 2 arrived! This is the RuneScape most people know. Being able to run this out of a browser for free was great for young me who was legally barred from getting a job yet.



I also went by the make over mage once after saving up all that money (lol) and transed my gender for a little while when I was 12 or 13. Which I'm sure meant nothing when I did like it, but felt I had to change back before my RS friends saw it and would call me slurs.
I was on little forums here and there, but I joined Neoseeker over the RuneScape forum. RuneScape was always there in the background. I even played a whole bunch when Dungeoneering came out and I could just dungeon delve with friends! Put it in OSRS f2p but delete the skill aspect, please, I beg of you. Anyway.

They always say that you never quit RuneScape. And maybe that's true for some. Maybe. But not for me. I don't want to go back anymore. I don't want to be surrounded by either people who hate me or bots who are essentially just megaphones with tape recorder on them for the same people. For all the joy I've had doing fun quests and meeting the few rare chill people, I can't ignore everything else in that world and I just don't feel like it's a home I can come back to every so often.

Hannah kinda quit OSRS a little bit ago, too. She wants to make more varied stuff beyond that 1 game. She's out revisiting her old favorites and trying out new MMORPG's with fun premises. I hope we all get that respite. I hope that even though one of my old favorite worlds is too hostile to me now, I can find a place somewhere else digital to be. To just be.



Like, so many of my Final Fantasy VIX friends last logged in years ago and I just don't feel the spark anymore. City of Heroes Homecoming is so casually homo&transpobic I can't stay for long either. Older gameworlds are dead and the private servers are barren.
I can't always commit to build my own world in other games because it's either in a file type/service I can't share and will somewhere lose or I build in something that uses proprietary stuff and that's going down in a few years.
I used to do some VR chat with modded, overheating phones and I enjoyed my time there. I visited people's portfolios and their project mostly. The streamers found it, then their viewers did. The influx of teenagers imitating the same 3 bits from their funny streamers chased everyone off. Since a long time people really hang on personal instances of maps people made that only Friends or Friend-of-Friends can join. There have been many more changes since then, they also pushed the VR headset, the Quest, really hard at Xmas and well, you can imagine how that helped drive people to secluded worlds.


I used to call myself Nomad Yves on an old Garry's Mod game mode. It was a little melancholic at the time and even more now.

Every so often, I'll feel like diving into an old MMO again. I just want slightly crunchy dungeon crawling and bossing, ya know? So many of the MMORPG's I've played are dead now or changed beyond recognition. Some are just unplayable because they didn't even change the movement mode to WASD or something after 30 years.

I don't really want to jump into Old School Runescape. I would already play it for a bit every year or so, but with the community staying and becoming more bigoted together with the CEO deleting the pride events and raising the prices when people left, I don't want to play anymore. Shame really, the OSRS dev's do their best and Mod Ash is a delight and an absolute ally. Patience of a saint and the sword of one if you start saying dumb shit to him.

Not even considering WoW, I will never give Blizzard money again and 80% of all Blizzard game players are just like that.
I don't need that in my life.



So, I looked at Everquest again. I tried a little bit a decade and half ago or something and saw the fun bits, but had such trouble with the convoluted controls and the absolutely mild UI design.

Maybe I'll never get anywhere, maybe I'll have fun, who knows! Find me on Bristlebane - The Tribunal! I might still change characters though.

May 2026




After years of thinking about it and seeing the fandom everywhere, I read Homestuck! At first I was still a little hesitant because I saw people say it takes like 4 months to read it. Turns out if you've been reading webcomics for ages it goes a lot faster. I got done in 3 days or so. While you sometimes run into massive paragraphs of text in a chat log, sometimes 30 pages fly by because it's an action scene or something that (luckily) doesn't need an A4 of text to understand.

I started skimming the larger chatlogs after a while because not all of it mattered to me. Maybe I missed a moment here or there where one character tells another about their favorite pencil, but by the end I didn't feel left out on a lot of stuff by skimming text here and there. Reading the first 2 lines and the last few was often enough if I picked up a few lines in the middle, too. It's how you can still understand the first Digimon series by only watching the recaps at the end and start of episodes and not miss a single thing.



I liked a lot of the art in Homestuck! The little 'quick' characters with no arms don't have any particular charm to me though. I see the template potential though, I see it. But with a lot of it's bashing together of the art and edited photographs it has a beautiful look to a lot of the bigger pieces. Delightful use of colour to really catch the readers eyes and like I saw some one say ages ago, even the clouds are a delight to look at!

I can't say the series broke new ground for me in that many ways, I've been into fantastical fantasy for ages now and have read several webcomics that deal with a lot of the same type of arcs, narrative and even just plots. I do see it's merits though, I kept in mind around what year what chapter was I read it. The animations and interactive games are amazing though. It's not something an author can just casually do! That part does make it stand out the most to me, the presentation! Unmatched!

I liked a lot of the characters by the end. I found it a little hard to care about the trolls at first and only managed to really care about a handful of them as the final curtain drops and the credits roll. I knew they were meant to be obnoxious and that's not the reason I was mild about them. A found a lot of exchanges to really go nowhere minus a single sentence at the end between some of the characters. It's only when you see the characters go through messy, emotional things that I finally cared a little about them.



Vriska was an interesting character to put it softly. While I've seen that the fandom feels various ways about the character, I thought a flawed individual like her worked fine. It gave the other characters something to do and added some stakes and urgency to the whole thing. I can totally understand the loathing people have for some of the characters, in those moments as the reader watching it unfold I share a lot of those feelings. The balancing of the fantastical elements together with just the messy and emotional sides of the characters is the spice!

In a way the hypocrisy, betrayals and all that, it adds much needed interaction and tension between a group of people basically stuck in 1 room for 3/4rds of the story.
Something about Disco Elysium but you're a witch in a cabin in a peaceful village with her cat.

I find it hard to recommend it though. The beginning is a bit of a slog to get through and sometimes it's a lot of pages with massive paragraphs in the chatlog, using name abbreviations I start losing track of and sometimes the worst font colour and the worst typing quirks. It becomes a word salad and I would just feel my eyes glaze over. I'm not a fan of CTRL+ALT+DELETE, but I think a lot of you owe Buckley an apology about how his webcomic was nothing but text at some points.

Some of the intermissions were also a little drab. Hussie going on in psycho-babble about ruling you and dominating you when you wait for updates. Or how your prompts are useless and the story was set in stone anyway. I suppose it's cute to get a little true-4th-wall-breaky, but I've been seeing artists do that for 3 decades, so while I see it and I get it, I might not have much to engage you with. I already know what this is and I got nothing to add I suppose.



In the end, I'm glad I read it. I understand where a lot of people have been getting their jokes from the last decade and how many of the popular posts or memes are just copy pasted Homestuck texts. Also shined some light on where a lot people got their framework and basic terminology about gender, attraction and some other things. You know how it is, if Naruto believing in you makes you brush your teeth, dattebayo. The Quadrants being just polycules and toxic yuri is funny though.

Also, I was waiting the whole series for June Egbert and it just never happened. There's a conversation that happened where the main protag, John circles the concept and says "But what if I was a girl?" and I thought "Here we go!" and then nothing.

I heard and read a lot of things have happened to Homestuck, Andrew Hussie and things like games and Homestuck2 in the past years. I'll dive into all that later, maybe.

You may have heard of Star Conflict, it's a game with almost 3000 dollars worth of DLC in the form of 'cool spaceships'. In between the almost-daily announcements about their fake currency being on sale or starships that are now 30 bucks instead of 35, they announced the game will be shut down this year October. As you can imagine, putting that inbetween the next sale is a poor move. But, I and I reckon most players have already lost faith in the game ages ago. It's more of an "of course, right?" then a "How dare they!"

Despite this, sales go on and at most they release some old dead game modes back into rotation. They have no plans to just give people the premium junk because it was worthless from the start anyway. At most they will close the shop like 1 week before the final date of shutdown.



I'm gonna miss being in space though. To celebrate the death of the game I've used some of the battle pass currency I've never bothered to understand to get a new portrait!



Goodbye Lylat Star.

I've been playing a bit of Kenshi again! Every so often I disappear into the game and don't come out till I have taken the world.



This time, I'm gonna make a main base in the Fog lands, a place overrun by hostiles who will capture you and devour you. I'm sure it'll be fine!

I watched the 2 hour Sarah Z video. It covers a small range of topics that have some overlap. Grifters, child liberation and use of propaganda in those cases.


I've been a fan of Sarah Z for ages now and I think the channel is worth a look for anyone! Just head over and hit something vaguely in your knowledge!

I made the mistake of lingering on youtube again, but at the very least it started to auto-play some Drum and Bass playlists. It landed me on some one I found a while ago and liked a lot!





Dedeco is a DJ from Brazil with love for the older DnB you would find in games like Ridge Racer or even Monkey Ball! He's also done fun sets with Tekken music. He also does this fun thing where he talks and tells stories of interviews and such with the composers and producers, all via the subtitles option!

I've been on a little RTS kick and started playing some Age of Empires II again. I did a bit of the Joan of Arc campaign and mostly just giant matches. My heart belongs to the Huns. Horse everything was always fun to rush in our little LAN & Hamatchi games. I then tried to get a copy of Warcraft 3: Frozen throne to run but I've having some trouble here and there.

I also started playing some PokeMMO. In the game you can start in any of the regions you have the 'game' of and also travel to other regions later, provides you have the 'game'. As the name implies, you share the world with others! The game is available on tons of platforms, too.




This is part of my mainstay team. I have a few others I swap out like an Arbok named Toxic Noodle, Noctowl called HowlOwl and some other random Bug/Psy types. I'm raising an Abra I've called "Jin Alakazama".
Totodoro is mostly there because I could give him Strength, Surf and Cut. I caught Webster and Nerox early on as I started in Johto, the 2nd generation. Zullie comes from the first cave area close to the start. I'm currently stuck a little in 2 regions. In Johto, Clair is destroying my little Poison/Dark/Psy team with ease. I'm training a Charmander and Magikarp to teach Dragon moves to. In Kanto I rushed through the last 2 gyms with a clutch and now the rival encounter before the League gates is a little too tough.

Your pokemon are level locked to which badges you have in the region you're in. If you bring a Level 50 pokemon into battle in a region where you only have a few badges and your level limit is like 30; your pokemon will insta KO itself in it's first turn. It so you don't bring in hyper trained killing machines and blast through a region in half a day. Some of my pokemon have outleveled a region and I can't use them anymore. I gotta train some new ones!

The game also involves a lot of breeding of pokemon for perfect EV and IV stats. I'm going about it all a bit more casual though. Just having a big adventure across the regions and then I'll put pokemon games down again for a year or 2 - 3.



I found a Team Rocket outfit, too!

I do think about that Pokemon MOBA sometimes though. I see the cute outfits and I just wonder if it's worth playing.

March 2026

We've been watching episodes of Taskmaster and Last One Laughing in the VC together here and there. Taskmaster is alright, has some fun bits but nothing too gripping. Last One Laughing is amazing though, we watched Season 1 & 2.



The goal of the show is to put a room of comedian together and whoever is the last to laugh wins a bit of a prize. Every so often participants have to put on a show or act to try and make the others laugh. I used to listen to comedians on XM radio like 20 years ago so I do love it when they go head-to-head. I remember great moments between Joe de Rosa and Jim Norton on terrible shows. Seeing the comedians on Last one Laughing trying to out-awkward and overcringe each other is amazing.

Long ago but not ages, I would watch a bit of Zuthar13's stuff. I was playing a lot of Source games myself because my old PC couldn't handle much intense stuff. You can see how I end up on a channel where someone started out with "How to troll Gmod players" as a video series.



That series had already ended by the time I started really watching for a while. I saw him start to do more scripted stuff or at least try and tell a little story. He then moved over to GTA5 online and started a new persona; Commander Chaos. This later became his Vtuber name and persona when he stopped going as Zuthar13. By this point he had already started using his first name and a few pics on socials. Conner dresses like a vampire who is into melodic-doom-grunge and I always loved that.

He once did a stream where he took the mask off his Commander Chaos character and revealed himself to be a handsome anime man. I didn't follow this period of his streaming career but I did watch his last stream as that character. What happened is that he joined Hololive and then had to get rid of some of his old stuff.

To be very honest, Yeah, good, I get it.

As you can imagine from a 16 year old on player-moderated online games, the language and slurs are heavy sometimes. I don't know if he ever addressed these things, but it's whatever I guess. His fans were not kind to him when he wanted to Vtube as Cmd Chaos, let alone when he became Gavis Bettel.



He also does a show with a friend called "Best in Jest" and is still active on social medias. I missed a lot of these things because I checked it out and just wasn't drawn to it. I do like seeing him do well though. I also learned he does covers and has grown quite a vocal range!

So, that, I was watching some old Zuthar13 videos. His little movies of Team Purple and Two-Arms. So much has aged so poorly and it was already rotten at the time. But there's something fun about seeing the super early roots of someone. I take it all with a grain of salt and understand you have to view some things in the vacuum of 2013. I mean, it still was not okay back then, but gamers were even less informed.

Poke ALL Toads is out!



I had this one on my wishlist for a while after playing the demo. It's a cute little puzzle game where the goal is to poke all the toads in a level and live. You are backed up by other cute faeries each with their own skill or ability.

I got around to playing Psychopomp! I had heard of it before and liked what I saw, but I finally sat down and finished the first base game.
It's a grimy first person game, not really a puzzler, not a shooter. You do have an attack in the form of swinging a hammer, but you only need it a few times. I am in love with it's strange phrasings and bleak imaging of a darker world.



I don't have super many thoughts on it while I did enjoy it! I'm thinking I wanna get the Gold Edition which has some extra levels and all that.

I've been playing Warhammer: Return of Reckoning again. A private server for an ancient MMO all about fighting each other in the Warhammer Fantasy world. I play for a week or 2 maybe once every year or 2. I like a lot of things in the game, minus like half of the players. Big pvp battles, sieging keeps and goofy warhammer! What's not to love!
I got it running on my Linux Mint without too much issue, although sometimes you do gotta restart the launcher once or twice before it goes "Oh yeah, I'm supposed to make contact and log you in."



I finally got around to leveling my healer to the max normal level. I still wanna change her name later on. Right now it's Shanaa Blightrotten, but I wanna rename her to like Nurgelette or something cute.

I'm watching videos on someone who keeps little contained eco systems and documents all the growth and changes in them. I think something like this would be fun to do, but I don't really have the space to set up large glass boxes. Maybe I can use something closer to mason jars?

Every so often I go back and replay the first Deus Ex. I change the resolution, I untag the Pistol skill and get Lockpicking, Multitool and Computing skills, I spawn and turn around and look at the skyline.
I chuckle and say to myself "Limitation of the engine"



Deus Ex was a very strange game to me when I first played it decades ago. While I completely missed the missing twin towers in the NYC skyline and didn't think about the implications of the statue of liberty being decapitated; I was very interested by what it was saying. In between complaining about how none of my shots connected, meeting the first rebel leader and just hearing him talk about consolidation got me invested.



Together with JC Denton I made a bizarre journey through various conspiracy theories. Some are given an explanation by Deus Ex, some are just driven to it's "logical" conclusion. The stereotypical Gray's are real, but they don't come from space. The Illuminati is real, but it's been dying for a long time. There is a man-made virus propagated by the same people who sell the cure. And so much more tucked away in the details. I recommend anyone to grab a copy, get Kenies launcher and rebind your controls. You can follow a guide if you want, no real person is gonna blame you for save scumming a passcode here or there either. But talk to people, every computer is a chance to learn something weird about what's going on in the year 2052!

A while ago I came across a channel that builds a lot of goofy, sometimes dangerous machines and other contraptions. Uwo's Lab. I'm watching the stream where he showcases hobbies from viewers.



I do love this one!



Grass Kitty Fan is really good, too!

I'm wondering if I should see Iron Lung and to take a friend who sometimes has markiplier on the background. I heard good things!